Dilemma

"Dear, I am going to XX, just let you know that I have called XXX to ask him to give you a chance for prod work. I think he iwll consider my recommend, anyway i am not sure he is ok or not, but i hope you have a job. keep in touch"

when i saw this sms displayed on the phone, my heart ache. I feel so touching and unexpected that someone whom i thought had always been neglecting my feelings and don't remember my words actually done something to help me....i was totally speechless at that time and tears just fell down uncontrollably. In a way, I never thought to ask him to help, as i just feel that i should get the job by my own means and not through others help. I was always in dilemma when i comes to this situation. I wanted the job, but I doesn't wish that I got the job because of someone's recommendation. If I got the job, I'll be feeling like I am "using" a fren to help me get a job,"using" his "good relationship" with others. I wish that I got it because of my own capability. Maybe someone will says, c'est la vie, we need recommendations in order to reach our goals. But it just can't convince me. Any comments?